23rd Nov 2009, Monday , Evening

I do not know since when I has been treated like this. This has happened for months … till now… and it has been really hard times for me where MY HEART has been broken again and again…and still…it is.

Is it something those I have wrongly spoken or done ?! It is not supposed to be like this. Well, who am I to judge and decide ? By the way, neither do you ,right ? But why am I being treated like this ? I have been keeping to ask myself and I am still asking myself … again and again….

I have been thinking what I had done wrong … It has been sleepless nights …and it is still sleepless night … and I wish that it is not going to be sleepless nights . I just do what I have to do . I just keep my promises . I just keep my words. Are these wrong ? I don’t really know … Is it wrong if I do not have much stories about myself ? Is it wrong that if I am to be too serious sometime ?

Okay , what do I want ? You don’t have to spend me big meals . You buy me nothings . You do not need to think much about me. Hmmm…well what do I want ? I have been thinking about it . I found the answer … it is ONLY accompany , a little care and a little responses to me, that’s it.

I would more than LOVE to, to change to suit others … just tell me what I need to do, what I need to change, what do you want from me ?

I really do not know how to continue this…. no mood to write …. things not happen as it supposed to be … feeling so heaVY ….

~ Yet another sleepless night ….